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What She Said

In love she said "you know I don't agree with the way you worship...you are leading your kids astray, take care, Hannah, take care".
I called her to tell her that we bought a house. A nice one. Much nicer and bigger than we ever dreamed we would have. God has been good. Much kinder and more gracious than I deserve or even knew to hope for.
But she stopped short of rejoicing, because she believes I have left "the faith" and when my soul is at stake...what's a new house?! 
I wasn't angry. I was sad. And grateful. And full of love. I appreciate her caring for me enough to talk to me about it. Instead of just halting all interactions without explanation.
I know it was motivated by love. I know it hurt her to say. Because I know she loves me.
I took her seriously. I considered her words.
I searched my soul.
I do not believe I am infallible, that I have access to something that other people don't. At some point in the future, we may realize that we …

Pardon Me While I Have a Little Moment

I want to write.

I want people to read what I write.

I want my writing to make a difference.

I've been doing this for 10 years. 8 at this blogger address.

I have almost no followers through blogger. I have had 124 likes and follows on my Facebook page for...I don't even know how long. And most of those people don't actually read what I write.

I have to share my writing on Facebook to get anyone to read it.

People don't like my writing enough to go out of their way to make sure they can.

This isn't self pity. It's reality.

I want to write. I want to be a writer. I would love to make a living as a writer and quit my day job.

But I've been doing this a long time and it just isn't working.

I'm not blogging to make money. I know that blogging won't ever be my day job. I blog for practice. I blog for training. I blog because in order to write books, I need a platform. I need to be able to sell my work to a publisher and having a platform is a big dea…